I haven't always succeeded in life. Sometimes each time I get up something seems to want to push me down. Sometimes I laugh until tears roll down my cheeks. Sometimes I sit in the wind and just breathe. Sometimes I feel like crying, and sometimes like flying. It's all me, and sometimes...I write these things down, and they're here for you to see.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Time.

So I was thinking earlier.  Dangerous thing, I know, but it happens to the best of us.  But about time.  I mean, there's been billions of years of it, and yet, it still keeps going.  And so many things happen in it, do we really realize or appreciate the gift or hinderance of it?

Consider.

A lifetime, year, month, week, day, hour, minute, second.

A Lifetime.  Over the space of our lives, however long or short, we grow.  And as we grow, we are here to help others learn and grow with us.  Who'd've thought that a small child born in some foreign land would grow up to become Ghandi?  Or that all your ancester's lives lined up and you were born...what are you going to do with that?

A year.  You're older on the outside by One in the eyes of the world, but how much have you grown inside?  In the space of a year you may have gone from being completely healthy and running around every day to watching everything you do because of a sudden illness that's sprung on you.  You may have graduated from high school, gone to a foreign land, met a goal, met a friend.  Who knew a year from now you'd be where you are?

A month.  You could be four weeks in to your new diet, four lessons later into your studies, you could have gone from bitterly cold and raining/snowing every day to...sunny for a moment and still bitterly cold and raining/snowing. ;) Okay, if you live in Utah, that is.  If you live elsewhere you might notice the weather changes more, but Utah's has noticable changes as well.  We're not scraping our cars off every morning before heading to work.  Well, I'm not, anyways.  Mine's also parked in a garage. :)  A month often shows the deepness of a relationship/friendship (in my opinion) and how much you've learned about the other person.  I mean, you barely even knew them at the beginning of the month.  Now you sit with them at lunch and go to movies with them where you spill popcorn and laugh harder at the previews than the actual movie...perhaps you share your favorite cookies with them that you never share with anyone, or you go and talk with them and share jokes before sharing them with anyone else.

A week.  You're graduated from high school.  You've gone on a cruise.  You've completely forgotten what you did six days ago until you read what you wrote in your weekly journal entry...then write what you remember from that week.  You were in such and such a place this time a week ago...

A day.  Boy, a lot of things can and do happen in a day.  It can begin before the sun rises, after noon, in between.  You could have gone on a whirlwind of a trip and can't believe that just yesterday you were there... You could smile and say a kind word, or roll your eyes and walk on, completely making or destroying someone else's day.  You can go to school and go to bed with knowledge you didn't have when you got up.  You can wake up completely happy and crawl into bed entirely crushed if you didn't get your job, or vice versa.  A.lot.of.things.can.happen.in.a.day.

An hour.  Sometimes my mom would say we could have an hour on the computer, or play with friends for an hour.  Sometimes we'd do chores for an hour.  Hour long movies can be over in a heart beat, or stretched on in endless monotony depending on what they are.  An hour has the uncanny ability to seem to stretch or shrink around it's allotted time.

A minute.  "Just a minute", a minute glass...each a reference for a small portion of time we need.  Five minutes can seem like an eternity when waiting for the mail to come, or like barely enough time to say goodbye to the friend we are talking with.  It's amazing to look out the bright window one moment, and the next see the beginnings of a warm sunset.  A minute is so short that if you turn around, the view is immensily different, and five mintues after originally walking out, the sky is dark, and the world has moved on.  Try holding your breath for a minute.  Perhaps you should try holding it in the presence of other people.

A second.  A segment of time so small, yet the universe is made up of so many of them it is dependant on them.  Really, life boils down to how you use your seconds.  One second you're awake, the next, lost in the land of dreams.  A second's difference is when you receive an email, pick up a pen, see someone, or perhaps even die.  A second later, you've learned something.  You've hurt something.  You've realized something, you've tasted that delicious meal that was prepared.  You see?...Seconds are important in life, more than we realize.  And as I've been writing this, thoughts fly in and out of my head faster than a single second, and the messages our brains send travel just as fast if not faster.  Time is an intricate thing.  The beauty is in using it right, eh?

Then you get time.  It is currently 10:14pm on a Sunday night, at the end of May at the beginninng of summer in the middle of my life...well...something like that.  Our lives are driven by how we use our time, by getting to our locations on time, by completing out tasks in a certain amount of time.  "I'll meet you at 7" "You have 6.5 minutes" "You're just on time" "Time to go"...  and then there's Eternity.  That's just a little too deep for this time.  (haha...eh...)  Some of you may be reading this and think it's been a waste of mine and your time.  Well, all I have to say is, maybe it is, but it's all in how you view it.

Well, those are my thoughts for right now.  Speaking of which, how is "right now" defined...in seconds? Ha...good luck with that one. :)

Love, Me.

Sunsets...


So I spent the last 20 minutes or so ago outside taking pictures of the BRILLIANT sunset that was happening...ahh...I love sunsets!! I'll try to post some pictures, my first try didn't work.  Course, I'm still getting used to this thing.  My camera doesn't do the colors nearly enough justice, but here's what I've got. :)

Isn't earth amazing?? Have a nice day!! :)
Love, Me.

Friday, May 28, 2010

Dear World...

Hi. :) My name is Jenna.  I am nearly 18 years old, a high school graduate as of yesterday, and as of today...am loving life.  My sister, Karra, recently got a blog, and I thought, hey, that's cool.  So here's mine.  Some things about me- I'm the second oldest of five kids, I love singing, playing piano, talking with friends, etc. (there's a list), I'm looking for a job, and at the same time am beginning to advertise for teaching piano and voice lessons ($10 for a half hour), psyching myself up for BYU Provo in the fall where I'll begin studying Choral Education, and love How to Train Your Dragon.  Whoo...that's a mouthful. :)

Karra says that my friends and I should stop going to see that movie for a while, otherwise it'll never go to the dollar theaters where we can see it five times for the price of one.  But when you love a movie and things just work out... :) Eh. I've only seen it twice, but I've listened to the soundtrack enough times that it's practically memorized. 

Something that I've started doing with a friend lately is a Preach My Gospel challenge.  You study a section, or even just a few parts of a section, then share what you've learned with someone.  It's mainly to prepare for the missionary lifestyle, but I also try to do it before I chat on email, etc.  It's been nice, and I highly recommend it for everyone, not just future missionaries.

Well, I've been on this laptop long enough today, but here's my blog or journal of my life, whatever you want to call it.  Hope you enjoy it!! :)

One thing I've learned in life-It just keeps going.  We can't change how fast or slow it goes, or what happens all the time, but we can control how we feel.  Why not enjoy it?? :)