I haven't always succeeded in life. Sometimes each time I get up something seems to want to push me down. Sometimes I laugh until tears roll down my cheeks. Sometimes I sit in the wind and just breathe. Sometimes I feel like crying, and sometimes like flying. It's all me, and sometimes...I write these things down, and they're here for you to see.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

An update...

Hey.  I haven't posted in a while...wow.  There just...I haven't...found a need to, I guess? That's lame. I mean, I think about it semi-frequently.  But then my time gets consumed with school and teaching and life, and blogging gets...pushed to the back.

So this is me not doing my homework, but blogging.

An update? January...Started another semester at BYU. Only 14.5 credits this time, whew. Much easier. ;) Favorite classes? Second half of the Book of Mormon, Dance 180 (Social Dance), Human Development and Physical Science.  I'm also taking New Testament and Family Finances, and had Music 176 for about a month, then that finished. Music 176 was a Music-Ed prep class that was held four Wednesday nights from 7-9:30. Whoo.

February...Well. I've been teaching since January, teach 4.5 hours a week to eight wonderful students, whom I love. My Valentine, Nicole auditioned for Treble Trio's at her school, and MADE IT!!!! I was so excited!!! :) I auditioned for BYU's School of Music going for Secondary Choral Education.  That was on February 17th.  Thanks to Joey that was my accompanist and moral support, I didn't hyperventilate before, during nor after the audition, a plus. ;) Auditioning was...a little serious on my mind, but wasn't too terrifying. I guess. Heh... ;) I turned in my Portfolio on that next Tuesday, while getting over a cold.  Timing is wonderful, eh?

March has been amazing so far.  I FINALLY saw Tangled last Saturday with my brother and sisters, Nathan, Karra and Lissy. SOOOOOO much fun!!!! I've heard so many good things about it, but I didn't realize How good until I saw it for myself. If you haven't seen it, Go see it. If you have, go again! ;) 

So many good things happened on Saturday. :)

Oh, yeah. I got called to be the Relief Society Chorister in my Young Single Adult Ward. That's fun. :)

I was almost a substitute accompanist for Provo High's Choir Tour Send-off concert tonight. That's...where I'd be right now.  But, (thankfully, I suppose) the concert got moved ahead to next week, so the original accompanist can do it.  Good luck, to you all. You'll do great. :)

This week is Dancesport at BYU.  It's one of the biggest comp's in the Nation, and guess who's competing in it on Saturday?? Yours truly!! I'm doing the Cha-cha with a friend from my Ballroom class, and I'm way excited.  I attended last year's, (but didn't compete, obviously) and remember it being so much fun, even just to watch.  My teacher is doing the Cabaret, the "trick dance" where you do lots of fancy lifts...I watched them practice, and boy, we're in for a treat. :D

I guess I'm kind of working backwards in my week, here. Or from the outside-in. Heh. This is sometimes how my journal entries go, too. Things as I remember them, in semi-sequential order. ;)  Anyhow, Friday I'm planning on the Temple, although I just realized the time I wanted to go is also during a Dancesport event I want to watch, and I've already bought tickets.  This is where a machine that allowed me to be in more than one place at once would be nice, because there's also an A Capella Concert at BYU that night....AHHH!!!! Choices, choices. :p

You know, this has been a really slow, anticipating week. Why? Cause I'm planning "a date to Africa tomorrow!!!!!"!!!!! Ahh!!! Okay, we're not really going to Africa...it's just a "for fun" thing...we're saying...
...we're really going to Tangled. ;) Ahh!!! Just as exciting!! And, you know, although it doesn't always work out to do things spontaneously, like decide to go somewhere 30 minutes before hand. But at least you don't have to practically die in anticipation of something you plan four days in advance.  Patience is definitely on my list of "Working on" virtues. ;) Speaking of Virtue, this week is my "Extra be Good" week.  To try and be a better, more virtuous woman. I Love It. :) (Ps. "Extra be Good" doesn't refer to Grammar.) ;) :-/

Man, even though it's hard at times, Life is good. :) Heh, I heard in a movie, "If you ever want to make God laugh, just tell Him what your plans are".  True, eh?? It makes me laugh, anyway.  Oh, right. My mom says she loves telling me jokes, cause she gets to laugh twice. :P Thanks, mom. ;)  She'll tell it, I'll laugh. She'll laugh harder cause I only got 90% of it, then I tell her, "Go ahead and laugh again" and she does.

Don't you just love the dinner table?? :P Heh.

Right. So....I get home today, and got some lunch. I was checking my email...and there's one labled "BYU School of Music Admissions".  I made a loud shout, and scared my brother in the kitchen.  You know, When I applied for college, I only applied to BYU. That's it. No where else.  And it was as I was waiting for a reply back from the University that I realized I should have probably applied for more schools.  I mean, I was already accepted to UVU, but, really...I had no "Plan B", other than BYU. :P As my Aunt says, "Life is all about Plan B". I've heard someone counter, "Well, I'm on Plan W". ;)  Follow the Lord's Plan.  Then you'll be on the right one. :)

BYU has a really interesting habit of getting you all excited for things at least three times when they email you about admissions.  First, when you see the email. Second, when you peek through your fingers only to find out that "a decision has been made", and you need to sign in to see what it is. Third when you again find yourself peeking through your fingers to see what the decision is.  Nice, eh? :P

Anyhow, back to the audition stuff. When I went in for my interview, they had missed my portfolio. That was like, "oh, no." But then they found it. So, as the term is "Wing it", that's what we did.  I actually got an email yesterday that said "Music Education Portfolio" or whatever, (which effectively surprised/scared me during class. That's why you don't check your email during class) but that was just to say to pick it up because they'd finished reviewing it.  So I did.

Oh, right, the email? ;) Heehee, keeping you in suspense...




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...as of now, I'll be auditioning again next year.  Which is nice, so I don't have to go to Spring and Summer right after this semester, and right before Fall Semester.  I also didn't get any scholarships for Spring/Summer, so hey.  More time to do generals.  Make sure that I'm doing the Lord's Will, for that's the only one that matters.  Am I sad?  Yeah, I suppose.  I thought I was ready and prepared, what with three years of previous public school music teaching, and my own Music Studio.  I think I'll be a little more humble this time...depending if this is the right thing for me to do.  I'll be doing a lot of praying and thinking for the next while over this matter.  The Program is very hard to get into, and takes about 4.5-5.5 years to complete, I believe.  Whoo.  Good luck, you all that are doing it now.  So, am I sad? Now, no.  Just accepting, humbly learning, and looking to the future and "Plan B".

Now I get to figure out exactly what "Plan B" is right now... :P Heheh. :) :-/

But, I do want to say this. Thank you sooo much to everyone who helped, listened, prayed for and supported me in this.  It means a lot to me, both that you would do it and that you did.  To Sarah that I met in my Human Development class who gave me more support in 20 minutes than she'll ever know.  She's strengthened my resolve, and added a new facet to my "Plan" I'm considering.

To the students and many talented singers of Concert Choir, thank you for the amazing video that was put together of you.  YOU are the reason I want to teach.  YOU are my inspiration.  I cannot believe the immense amounts of knowledge and potential you have, and your questions and answers are just...mind blowing in depth.  Keep it up, eh?

Thank you to Mr. Mendenhall, to Mrs. Garrett, Mrs.Van Orman, Tiave, Mrs. Peterson, Mom, Dad, my Brothers and Sisters, and wonderful Friends for your continued support and especially for the help I received during specific times with you.  To my many other teachers and leaders for your support. I hope that I can one day become like you.  To my students, my wonderful, ever-persistent, ever-growing students, you are my life.  I love teaching you and in turn learning from you.  To everybody, Thank you.  Most especially, My Dear Heavenly Father, I Thank You.  You hear my prayers when I'm in need, you heed my pleas and comfort my heart.  What glorious support from On High. :)

Life's better when you're grateful. :)

Well, that's my life basically right now.  Still 5'8". I still wear contacts, and glasses at night when I take them out.  Still somewhere between a buck 29 and a buck 35.  I'll be 19 in a little less than four months.  Weird.  Haven't been doing as much composing or major piano songs lately...but hopefully soon.  And through it all, the Gospel is still undoubtedly, inescapably, wholeheartedly 100% True. :)

Go to the Temple. 

Love you all, and wishing the best with everything. :) :-/

Love, Me.